No Time

In a field like the one I’m in, “no time” is labeled as “disease” and a thorough and meticulous treatment of self-management is applied.

In a field like the one I’m in, I’m in love with and passionate by the degree of self-awareness I need to constantly build up so as to perform and walk my talk.

Being who I am and where I am, I sometimes hate it that I cannot possibly hide behind the ever-so-popular excuse of having “no time” to do this and that without being fully aware that I am only bullshitting myself. Actually, there are two options: either “no time” means “not important/don’t feel like ever doing it” or “do something about it, DO SOMETHING about it!”

So, here comes upfront truth: today I admitted to myself that having “no time” to write mails that I’ve been meaning to write and to send pictures and thoughts that I’ve been meaning to send is an utter symptom of defective self-management and decided to do something about it! There are at least ten posts on this blog that I’ve been meaning to post and never came round to, there are millions of thoughts directed to people that didn’t get to receive them. Today is a particularly serene evening, an evening that had no special goal a few hours back. And it suddenly hit me: self contentment! When things look oh so sunny and bright and when daily things I am passionate about keep my mind and time filled 24/7. That’s when it hits! The self contentment. The preconceived idea that you are doing so much already that you couldn’t possibly do more. The “no time” for anything else disease. I have it and most probably many of you have it at times… So, at least I might have the chance for some empathy. Comforting. Barely sufficient. The “do something” monster has arisen and no apology in the world can save me from acting upon it!

This post is just the beginning. The outspoken version of an inner torment. The outspoken rebellion against silenced to do’s. And yes, it feels so good to be back in my rebellious shoes from time to time! To start the offensive and despite already doing lots, to do more!

I am happy! And grateful maybe more than ever before! For there are plenty of dreams that daily come true. But remembering that there’s always time to give more is the driver that will ultimately bring you more.

Over and out for now! Take your time! There just might be more available around;)!