Be. Breathe...

"In the quiet of a shadow,/In the corner of a room /Darkness moves upon you /Like a cloud across the moon."

I lost my breath today. I was chocking on my decision making processes. And as I was grasping for air, as I was trying to grab something to hold onto, a piece of myself that I could at least be sure of, I only knew that I'm in love. Full stop.

"And the answer that you're seeking /For the question that you found /Drives you further to confusion /As you lose your sense of ground."

I was trying to redo the puzzle of my being, the essence of my thoughts, the deepness of my logic, the sharpness of my innate weapons, the obvious truths and the underlying meaning. No air. No breath still. No logic, no arguments, no right or wrong. No air still.

"So, don't forget to breathe,/Don't forget to breathe/Keep your head above water /But don't forget to breathe!"

And as the walls were dangerously coming on towards me, as I was moving into thicker mists and deeper waters I felt like losing myself between the words and their dance, between the song and its heartbeat, between me and myself.

"And all the suffering that you've witnesed and the handprints on the wall /They remind you how it's endless /How endlessly you fall!"

It's been long since I last lost the definition of self.
It's been long since I last dropped over-thinking and under-doing, since I last sought no logic, since I last left all weapons aside, since I last quit on truth-seeking and meaning-finding and just lived.

Breathe in, breathe out. Let all be simple and for real, drop schemes, drop plan Bs, drop all defense and BE!

"So don't forget to breathe, don't forget to breathe, You're whole life is here..."

Can I just breathe?